A Lead-Poisoned Heart's Score

i've noticed since you're gone,
i just don't know how to breathe.
the moon drifted away,
the stars have all been sheathed.
i've noticed when you call,
i just don't know what to say.
a greyhound charter bus,
across the united states.
tickets bought by severed trust,
and intertwining fates.
your poems counted four,
but that's thousands of rules ignored.

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for instance, this sinking ship
is learning a lead-poisoned heart's score;
long distance relationship
rule number two-thousand and four.

i am blissfully bereft,
i've lost the things i've owned
that i never should have kept.
moss gathers on the stone
that lies dormant in the mud
under the canopy.
a stanza of stammering,
several words in my defense,
like a thief on his deathbed
who finally repents.
redemption out of fear
is brazenly insincere.

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so what's rule number
two-thousand and three?
well that would be
my bloodshot complacency.