Doomed From The Start

it is so hard
that i should have known
that it was doomed from the start
left a hand print on my heart
i can feel your hands at my throat

and i'm gasping, baby let me go
now everything's in slow-mo
all i wanted was just to be friends
all i want is to breathe again

and still i'm acting like it's okay
when nothing is okay
nothing is okay
and why you wanna have it your way
when i want it my way all the time

got myself in too deep
easier to push on then to retreat
i had no judgment
i let my guard down
'cause you made me feel so safe
didn't take advice i put stock in you
'cause you made me feel so safe
i didn't realize how much i needed you
now it's so much more than i wanted to

don't end the road here
a thousand scattered pieces to
the puzzle int he corner of my heart
i'm never sincere
photographs and cigarettes
empty throats for a chorus to my heart